11 Month Update

Stolen with pride from blog.americanfeast.com

Stolen with pride from blog.americanfeast.com

Today it is ‎exactly 11 months since my gastric bypass surgery.  I have come a long way but I am still focused on the last 30 pounds I need to lose. So today I thought I’d do a monthly status report to myself and focus on what I have accomplished:

Weight: I am down 95 pounds from the date of the surgery and 138 from my highest weight. There was a post the other day that said that is equal to one baby elephant, one bald eagle and one skunk. On the down side, I am the same weight I was last month because I gained 5 pounds on vacation. Still haven’t taken that off.

Size: I was a woman’s size 28 three years ago. Now I’m a size 12 and wear some 14’s and some 10’s. My stomach was 59″ when I started and now it is 38″.   I have lost over 21 inches off my stomach. That’s almost TWO FEET.

Fitness Level: I can swim a mile now. I can bike for hours.  Yesterday I ran/walked for over an hour. I am using the couch to 5k podcasts so I can reach my goal  of running a full 5k without stopping. I can work out for 3 hours at a time.  I start boot camp on Aug 2 – so will be cranking up my intensity a lot.  I signed up for a 5k on Aug 26 to celebrate my one year surgiversary. I am strong. I am fit. I don’t huff and puff when I walk. I take the stairs, run to the store and bank (literally) and work out almost every single day.

Mental Health: I am more aware of why I do the things I do, especially the damaging ones.  I still struggle every single day to make good choices in what I’m eating and what I’m doing. Some days I fail. Most days I don’t.  I suspect that it will never be easy and I’m getting better at accepting that.

Some days I want to rage against the universe. Why can’t this be easy? Why can’t I just pick the path and stay on it? Why do I struggle so much against what I know is right?
Other days I accept that being thin wasn’t my gift. My gift was stubbornness.   Determination. As one friend on the boards put it “This weight had better just go away already, because obviously, I am not giving up.”

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3 thoughts on “11 Month Update

  1. “Some days I want to rage against the universe. Why can’t this be easy? Why can’t I just pick the path and stay on it? Why do I struggle so much against what I know is right?
    Other days I accept that being thin wasn’t my gift. My gift was stubbornness.”

    Oh my goodness – I loooove this! What you wrote at the end is absolutely what my struggle has been for the past 5 years. I thought it would be easy after my WLS. Obviously noone told me that but I chose to believe that on some level. I didn’t think it would be hard again. When it got hard I stopped fighting.

    My back-on-track moment came when I realized that staying healthy and trim was just always going to be my personal battle and decided that it is okay. I could use those last two lines as my personal mantra.

    Awesome Karen.

  2. I am really enjoying your updates. I am 8 mos. post op (Roux en Y) and find your posts informative, uplifting and refreshingly honest. Thanks for continuing to share your journey! 🙂

  3. Love your perspective on why this is not easy! I need to be more stubborn! Slipping into bad habits since wedding is over. I have a new wedding to prepare for. But more importantly, a new MER to prepare for. One that is healthy and looks/feels good.
    As always, thanks for the insight & perspective. Sometimes I feel like you are the voice inside my head. Many other times I am reconditioning the voice inside my head.

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