Today it is exactly 11 months since my gastric bypass surgery. I have come a long way but I am still focused on the last 30 pounds I need to lose. So today I thought I’d do a monthly status report to myself and focus on what I have accomplished:
Weight: I am down 95 pounds from the date of the surgery and 138 from my highest weight. There was a post the other day that said that is equal to one baby elephant, one bald eagle and one skunk. On the down side, I am the same weight I was last month because I gained 5 pounds on vacation. Still haven’t taken that off.
Size: I was a woman’s size 28 three years ago. Now I’m a size 12 and wear some 14’s and some 10’s. My stomach was 59″ when I started and now it is 38″. I have lost over 21 inches off my stomach. That’s almost TWO FEET.
Fitness Level: I can swim a mile now. I can bike for hours. Yesterday I ran/walked for over an hour. I am using the couch to 5k podcasts so I can reach my goal of running a full 5k without stopping. I can work out for 3 hours at a time. I start boot camp on Aug 2 – so will be cranking up my intensity a lot. I signed up for a 5k on Aug 26 to celebrate my one year surgiversary. I am strong. I am fit. I don’t huff and puff when I walk. I take the stairs, run to the store and bank (literally) and work out almost every single day.
Mental Health: I am more aware of why I do the things I do, especially the damaging ones. I still struggle every single day to make good choices in what I’m eating and what I’m doing. Some days I fail. Most days I don’t. I suspect that it will never be easy and I’m getting better at accepting that.
Some days I want to rage against the universe. Why can’t this be easy? Why can’t I just pick the path and stay on it? Why do I struggle so much against what I know is right?
Other days I accept that being thin wasn’t my gift. My gift was stubbornness. Determination. As one friend on the boards put it “This weight had better just go away already, because obviously, I am not giving up.”