I know what I want to be when I grow up.
Okay, a writer, but that’s just my passion, not what I do to earn money. Last night I sketched out the job that I want. It was so clear. Today it is even more clear and I’m scribbling notes and making lists and doing research. I’m on fire!
I’m not going to post about it, I need to put some irons in the fire and send out some feelers. This is something that will take a bit of time to put together, do the networking and get in front of someone to pitch.
But the idea of spending my days working on this just lights me up. I really like my boss and my team, but it’s hard to be passionate about software development after all these years. It’s just something I do, that I’m good at and makes money, so my husband can stay home and my son can be homeschooled and we can all eat.
My friend pointed out that I used the word gaol instead of goal – and perhaps I was putting myself in gaol, British word for jail – and that is why I was feeling so down. Trapped in something that doesn’t set me on fire, because it’s a great job. Great boss, great team, great project, great location, great hours. Why would I change it?
But now, the idea of having something fantastic, fabulous and fascinating to work on is so exciting. I can’t wait to learn more and start working on this. I’m going to put together a plan (of course) and a presentation and then meet with my executive coach. She’s in Disney World this week, so I have a bit of time to mull it over and put it all together. Then we’ll figure out the game plan. How to make it happen.
When I can see what I want or need, I can make it happen. It is only when I’m wandering, lost in the dark, with no direction, that I start to fail. I am seeing the light today. It feels good.