So yesterday I said that I wouldn’t blog again until I’d exercised. I went upstairs and did my treadmill for 45 minutes – almost 3 miles – so the pace was decent. I took a 5lb dumbbell with me and did some curls, triceps and shoulder raises. It felt good. Plus, I had a good day yesterday. I went and got my hair cut – super short, which was a little scary this morning. Definitely a cut that needs some styling in the mornings.
So – yesterday – good day that started with exercise. Hmm, I thought to myself, I might be on to something. I dimly remember promising that I wouldn’t let the writing and social networking (which I love) interfere with exercise and good habits. Yep, I’m pretty sure I said that. I just had forgotten about it. Just as I let myself forget that exercise helps with the seasonal affective disorder. And that eating to excess doesn’t help with stress, it just redirects it. Distracts from it. How can I be stressed about work, finances or anything else if I am gaining weight and failing at weight loss surgery? Obviously that needs to come first! See how the mind plays those sneaky games? Stop exercising, start eating too much of the wrong things. Put on five pounds and start to see the flab coming back. Nothing more distracting than that and so, so familiar. It even feels comfortable to slide back into that feeling that I’m a failure and I can’t ever succeed at losing weight. That no matter what I do, I’m fat, I’ve always been fat and I’m doomed to always be fat.
Blah blah blah blah blah.
So where was I?
Oh, yeah, new rule. The new rule is that I will not blog, I may not check Facebook and I cannot surf the WLS message board until I have done my exercise for the day.
That’s a good rule. I observed it today and did my 45 minutes – only 2.7 miles – so my pace wasn’t that great. But I got a good sweat and it’s done for the day. I still have time to write my blog, check Facebook and beforeandafterhelp.com before I get ready for work.
Life is good.