Limbo

I’m waiting to hear about a job that appears to be just perfect for me. I want it so much. Truly, I think the hardest part of job hunting is the waiting, wondering and second guessing myself. Of course, getting rejected isn’t any fun, either, and as long as I’m waiting, I can still hope and dream and spin plans in my head.

Which means it’s pretty hard to settle down to anything with all the possibilities spinning through my head. Will we be moving across the country? Will we be trying to sell our house? Will we rent or try to buy something out there right away? What happens to my husband’s job? What about our son’s friends? Our friends? My family? I know that it doesn’t mean we’ll never see them again, but it does mean a lot of changes.

I have always sought change – even though I secretly fear it. Makes a strange and not always comfortable combination.

Being in limbo, though, that’s the worst. I am trying to keep busy with kickboxing, gardening, some jogging and projects around the house. I’ve been cooking a lot – trying to use up odds and ends in the freezer and pantry and fridge. Yesterday I made fig fudge from a bag of Turkish figs, almond flour and whey low diabetic sweetener. Turned out a bit too sweet, but pretty good. Kind of like a chocolate fig newton.  I might make a second batch with almost no sweetener and cook them together to even out the sweetener. Also, I have another half bag of figs which I am not sure what to do with.

Yesterday I did some combat style gardening – my favorite kind. I attacked the weeds in my flower beds in the front yard. The fact that there was a six-foot sapling growing in one of them means I probably haven’t weeded in about two years. I put in low maintenance plants but still, some weeding is obviously required!

Today I’ll be cleaning house and doing a big spring cleaning of the deck, now that the pollen season seems to be wrapping up. There’s just no sense in cleaning it when tons of strands from the oak trees will be falling. It will be good to sweep it all off and then hose it down. Probably needs a good scrubbing, too. Then once it dries out, I’ll stain it. That should keep me busy for a few days.

The next big task is the garage. Once we get all the building supplies out of the garage (which means once we finish the projects in the basement, sigh) then I’ll have room to sort and cull through the stuff in there. I suspect a good half of it can go, so I’ll put some ads on Craigslist and what doesn’t get picked up can be taken to the goodwill or the curb.

And if it rains, I can always sort books. My goal is to reduce my books by half. Just looking at one shelf next to my desk, I can see that’s going to be pretty easy. Some books I will read over and over again, that’s just the way I am. But some books, even if I enjoyed them the first time, don’t hold any attraction for a second reading.  So if anyone wants books, let me know!

Well, since my regular cleaning fairy has the day off,  I need to get moving. Have a wonderful, productive day and send good thoughts, say a prayer or just cross your fingers for me.

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3 thoughts on “Limbo

  1. I’m crossing fingers and toes, lighting candles, saying prayers, and reciting poems for you! You’re moving forward in spite of the awfulness of waiting. Stay positive, Karen!

  2. Praying that you get the job! Don’t like the thought of you so far away but the enthusiasm I heard when I spoke with you this weekend….it was great!
    Sounds like you have plenty to do while in limbo. Plus, you can work on your book with some of this time!

    Can you email me a list of consignment stores to possibly hit on Friday?

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