I had my gastric bypass RNY on August 26, 2009. At the time I weighed 278 (down 50+ pounds from the pre-surgery diet).
Today it’s 3 years and two months later and I weigh in at a whopping 222. At my lowest I got down to 170. So I’m still down 99 pounds from my original weight, but as I start to get back on track, that extra 52 pounds really, really overwhelms me. I guess it will take about a year to lose it back. Which is only right – it took a year of doing the wrong things to gain it!
One of the things that I realized i wasn’t doing was writing/journaling/blogging anymore. I hated admiting that I was gaining and gaining and gaining. I was going to be the role model for RNY – the “Right Way” to do it. Sigh.
Reality is that life stress, which I thought I’d learned to manage with all sorts of other coping tools, finally devolved back to stress eating and comfort foods. Bread, pastry, sweets – you name it, I’ve been eating it.
So going to check out all the great back on track threads and get started – AGAIN.
But that’s okay. it’s giving up that is not cool. Starting over is okay. Staying on track is better, but I choose to forgive myself and get going again.
Today: I will walk 3 miles.
Today: I will have low carb, high protein and nutritious food.
Today: I will take all my vitamins.
Today: I will journal and think about my life – where I am and where I want to go.
Today: I will celebrate getting through the craziness of the last 18 months and having the courage and strength to start over.
I’ve missed you guys.