In October last year I was not only at a very high weight again (236) but was not moving very well. All the signs were there that my sleep apnea and my diabetes were coming back.
The HeathAhead team at work started a Fall into Fitness challenge which helped to get me started. I was walking 1, then 2, then 3 and then sometimes 5 miles a day. Then a couple of weeks later I bought a Kaia FIT membership at a breast cancer fundraiser. I called to find out when it would start and the answer was TOMORROW. Wow. I did not feel read AT ALL. I’d only been walking again for a few weeks and I was more than a little scared. I had done the program before and it is a serious, kick your butt kind of workout. But – they do have three levels for every exercise: Balance (just starting) Strength (you can do this!) and then Kaia (extreme strength and balance and a real thing of beauty to watch).
So on October 15 I started working out at Kaia FIT in Minden, NV near our new home in Gardnerville. Well, not that near. It takes me 20+ minutes to drive there if I hit all the green lights. But it has been so worth it! I was getting up at 5am to make the 6am class. At first, frankly, I was miserable. But I also REALLY wanted to get back on track. So I kept at it. When the CORE session was over (5 weeks of workouts, four times a week) I signed up for another one. In every class and for almost every exercise I was still making modifications to even the balance level version. But I kept at it and I was starting to see some improvements in movement, sleep, anxiety and even my clothes were a little looser. (My very, very large, size 20+ clothes. Sigh.)
Towards the end of December I hit a wall – blame it on stress, blame it on seasonal affective disorder, blame it on the holidays – for whatever reason, I was backsliding again. Missing workouts and not always eating as I should. Blast those holidays! I felt like I was spending too much time on the workouts, between the drive there and back and what not.
So I kept with it but I switched to the 5 am class. That’s right. In January I started getting up at 4am to go and work out for the BRIK. I have no idea what that stands for but what it means is 6 days a week, plus a nutrition plan, plus measurements, photos and goals all along the way. The 5am class is full of teachers from the local school who come out to exercise before racing to school to be at work before 7am. These women are amazing. I’m two weeks into the BRIK and seeing amazing results. I’m eating vegetables, fruit, nuts and as much organic as I can. I haven’t lost that much weight, but I know I’ve lost a lot of inches. Since October I’m down 3 pants sizes and just fit back into a pair of size 16 pants. They are a bit tight, but they fit and hey, with a sweater over them, no one knows about the muffin top. (My son says Mom it’s not a muffin top, it’s a whole loaf and then laughs like a loon. I love that boy.)
Four more weeks of no meat, no dairy, no gluten, no alcohol and no caffeine. I should be in a panic and cheating like crazy but I’m not. I’m actually feeling really good and having a good time with the recipes in the Kaia Kookbook. I’m even getting my husband and son to try some of the recipes and Fred made a dinner the other night of brown rice cooked in vegetable broth and stir fried zucchini, onions and tomatoes that we all three fought over. They added some rotisserie chicken to theirs, but I was really happy with just the veggies.
It was Jacob’s birthday on Thursday and I did have a burger and fries and cake which tasted AMAZING. Fortunately for my plan, I felt like crap afterwards and it was easy to get back on track. At the birthday party yesterday I ordered a burger with no bun, no cheese and no meat. Ha! It was at Five Guys Burgers and Fries and they made me a lettuce wrap with grilled onions and mushrooms, lettuce, tomatoes and pickles. I put a little mayo and mustard and salt on it and it was GREAT! I did have a few fries (a few too many) but I am not going for perfection. I’m going for life and life is about wobbling on and off the path and keeping on towards your destination.
I have new goals this year. They are a little different than previous years, but I’m feeling very relaxed and calm about them. Here goes:
1. I will give myself a break and not expect perfection, because it is not possible
2. I will give others a break because it’s only fair (see #1)
3. I will go outside every day and look at the sky and feel the sun or enjoy the stars
4. I will celebrate all the things I can do at 50+ that I never tried to do at 20
5. I will be grateful every day for all the wonderful things in my life
6. I will be less fearful and more peaceful
7. I will take care of myself by eating food that I enjoy that is good for me
8. I will take care of myself by spending more time relaxing and enjoying life
9. I will talk to more friends and not just on Facebook
10. I will not go back and move the indent over so this line matches the others (see item 1)
11. I will whine less and wine more
12. I will give myself permission to be happy and to do things that make me happy
13. I will not make New Years resolutions that make me frantic and feel like a failure (see item 1) (Ed. note: several items removed)
Well, that’s it. It’s good to be back to blogging. I didn’t realize how much I missed it.
Happy New Year to everyone and a peaceful, joyful year to all.